HAVELOCK ISLAND, ANDAMANS
Drizzles of the early monsoon were slashing against our faces as we droves through the darkly roads of Havelock island. Twelve hundred kilometers off Indian mainland, in the abode of the Bay of Bengal is Havelock. It derived it's name from the Major General Sir Henry Havelock of the British army. It adorns the east horizon of the scattered pearl necklace like Andaman Island group. Serene and tranquil, it's like a pearl encased in an oyster deep in the blues. Thoughts and words go silent here. A feeling of self realization seeps in as you feel detached from a chaotic world of the mainland.
I would simply say, "HAVELOCKED".
Early June monsoon rains had already paid there visit to Havelock. The roads were soaked, the coconut trees dancing with the chill breeze and the clouds overhead were roaring with flashes of lightening now and then. Our tiny little scooter sometimes swiveled in the strong winds and the heavy drops of rain stinging our faces. The night was dark and cold and wet. The fringe illuminated road ahead was deserted as it was already 9 PM in the evening. Night falls quickly on this part of the world and the island goes to sleep very early. We were on our way to the Barefoot Cafe near the dock for dinner. Navigating on a new terrain can be a little difficult when the roads are new and depeopled. Still, the sound of the ships on the dock were our guide and it took us less than 10 minutes to be there.
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Barefoot Cafe -The 1980's Memorabilia |
At the corner of the Havelock jetty dock is the
Barefoot Bar and Brasserie. I parked my scooter on the pavement. It was a little dark but the place had it's own charm of being like an ancient mariner's chill out point. We were greeted by wooden furnished exteriors with wide open glass windows. A French connection radiated from the interiors. We made our way upstairs to the first floor with the wet wooden staircase squeaking beneath our feet. The lighting seemed dim emanating from a few overhead lights hanging over the dinner tables. The walls were matted with crisscross bamboo mat rolls. Photo-frames with retro american theme hung from them. We choose to take a table facing the open ocean. The balcony on which our table lined was bordered with thick wooden masts. The waves crashing on the dock made harmony with the thundering rain. Cold breeze slithering across our body sent chills down our spines. Me and my beloved Esposa sat transfixed as we molded into the scenic playground of Havelock's drizzling nights. We sat there for long before anyone of us spoke.
" Feels like heaven. I don't want to go back.", she whispered finally breaking the silence between us.
I nodded. My words resonating from her lips.
But my mind was churning with some other thoughts as well.
I stretched my arms across the table, holding her cold palms I asked, "Are you sure you want to do this?"
She looked straight into my eyes. "Why do you ask? I think I have already told you that."
A feeling of guilt strode down my heart. "I feel I am asking much of you. You don't have to be in my shoes always."
With a gentle smile she put an end to the conversation. "I am where you are."
We ordered our food and cherished the amazing moment that we knew might not come again.
Call of the Deep Blue Sea
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The Backyard beach of Sea Shell Resort |
The next morning I woke up early.
"Finally the day had come". Sluggishly I rose from my bed unwrapping the cozy blanket. It was cold that morning and clouds still lurked overhead. Some caffeine had been always tonic to my conflicting mind. I made some coffee for me. My wife was still deep in her slumber. I walked out of our room with the coffee mug dangling on my fingers. The sight that span ahead of me was breath-taking ... deep blue sea spread across as far as you can see, white sand beneath felt like silk pebbled carpet and a few mangrove tree stood sentinel on the water's edge. Our room of the Sea Shell Havelock Resort was just a few steps away from the beach. One could see waters from the windows. The sound of the waves were a melody that kept playing all the while. The resort had it's own personal beach that opened into the vast bay of Bengal.
A silent voice resonating from the waves felt like a spell that seduced me like an enchantress. My heart followed it's calling and I edged further towards the ocean till my feet could feel the water kissing them. Time lapsed by silently. My eyes were staring beyond the horizon where the two blue dimensions merged into one. Whirlpool of emotions flooded my heart and mind. For a moment it felt like eternity. But yes, there I stood facing my deepest fear...
"Hydrophobia". And I was here to face it, conquer it once in for all.
By 10:00 AM we were done with our breakfast and gearing up for the adventure that lie ahead. There was very little we spoke that morning. We both were fighting our silent battles. On our trip to Andamans I had wished to go Scuba diving. And we had long conversations over it. The fact that I choose such an extreme sport was to win over my life long fear of deep waters. At a given moment we had decided against it as I risked of suffocating under water. Comforting each other and lifting our spirits we had finally agreed to go ahead.
"Besides how often in life do you get a chance to defeat your fears risking your own life". We laughed heartily at this thought.
Our tour guide arrived sharp at 10:30 AM. Mr. Joseph was a short chubby guy, his noodled black hair neatly held back with a hair band.
He put forward his hand for a gentle shake,
"Sir, shall we move along? It's time for your scuba dive."
A mixed cocktail of anxiety and excitement gripped me hard, but a confident voice escaped my lips,
"Sure.".
I could see my wife smiling from the corner of my eye and I even knew what she thinking exactly.
We made our way to the diving site a few blocks away, walkable distance. "Sea link Scuba", a vibrant blue sign board welcomed us. The office was a well furnished beach shack. A few chairs were spread across a round wooden table and at the corner was a large reception desk. On the other side of desk sat a young bubbly lady with squinting eyes and bright red lipstick. Her ascent appeared to be of north east. She smiled to us as we approached the counter. She offered us the chairs and with a very friendly voice asked us to fill up a form.
Hmmm... "this the part where people tell you that you are about to do a crazy stuff and might risk loosing your life. And if you do loose your life in the process, they will not be held responsible." I had seen it in movies but holding a form like that in your hand in real life is a different feeling altogether. It makes you think twice... no, thrice... no no, infact it doesn't make you to think at all. We just signed ticking out against all odds. I was hydrophobic and my Esposa a little asthmatic.
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Tagged and Ready "2B-5" |
Just behind the shack, a narrow path led to the beach. Diving suits that we were asked to put on were rubbery black and blue. Was not very uncomfortable but somewhat skin tight. Hand in hand we strolled ahead, felling like children about to get candies. The sandy path was lined with mangrove trees whose intertwined roots emerged from the water soaked sand. Pebbles and dead corals of different hues washed up shore tainted the white sandy beach. At a distance, in waist high water we could see some guys with scuba diving gear on. They were instructing some sign languages and gesture to the poor victims about to face the deep waters, and in a few moments we were about to join them. A small bench served as their control room where a young man was sitting and closely observing the activities in the water. He was surrounded by life jackets, oxygen cylinders, diving vest and what not. A "Monster" marked cap was what he had put with a sporty colorful sun glass resting on it's hood. He rose from his seat to greet as we approached. He asked me to put forward my hand and marked a number on the back of my palm "2B-5". That was our registration number. He then pointed to a man standing on the water's edge,
"That's Raghav, he will be your instructor. Please go and meet him", he said handing us two underwater masks.
Meeting Raghav
Raghav was from Mumbai. He works for a few months as dive instructor while rest of the year he sits behind na executive desk in some corporate office in Navi-mumbai.
"Hello", he said with a serene smile. I shook his hand "Hi".
He went on, "I am Raghav. I will be your dive instructor for the session."
"Is it your first dive?", he said curiously.
"Yup, it is.", I replied.
He looked at me and them at my Esposa, "Can you guys swim?".
I shook my head, "No".
My Esposa added, "just a couple of times during my air hostess training days."
His lips perched back with strained look on his face he smiled at us.
"Great!", he exclaimed.
"Nervous?", He enquired.
"I am extremely Hydrophobic. And I don't know why we are doing this!", I slyly admitted.
A thundering laugh echoed.
"Don't worry my friend you are in safe hands. Besides, Even I was hydrophobic and it took me six hours to get into the water the first time I did this. See, here I am after a couple year. Can't stay away from the blues now." , added Raghav.
I don't know if it was fact or he just said it to comfort us. But his words worked.
"Shall we?", he said asking us join him in the water.
It was time now.
Into the Open Ocean
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The training session - getting ready for the deep blue sea |
Raghav made us put on the oxygen cylinders and the weight belts necessary to stay underwater. Underwater masks covered our eyes and nose. We had an hour long training session regarding the utility of the diving gear and how to use it. Raghav was a professional and he made all efforts to keep us at ease. Sign languages were vital as underwater you cannot speak. We revised it again and again till we got it right. My thoughts were only stuck at one sign, "thumbs up" i.e.
"get me up to the surface". At chest deep water we practiced immersing, breath control through the regulator, displaying sign languages and all. Got to admit was a little tiring but adventure has it's own way of thrilling you.
Raghav was right, when you spend some time in the water you start to fall in love with it. The crystal clear waters hypnotizes you in way that the human mind fails to resist. And finally it was time to venture into the enchanting ocean.
The vests puffed up when the air valve was released and the body felt weightless. In a moment we were floating on our backs. The instructors dragged us into deep water slowly. I was afloat facing the sky, speckles of clouds still strolling on it's canvas. I stretched out to reach my Esposa, it took a few strokes to get to
her.
I held her hand, "Seno, are you OK?", I asked.
"It's Beautiful.", she whispered.
I couldn't see her as we were facing up. But I knew she was smiling.
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Finally Underwater |
About two hundred meters away from the shore the air valves were tightened and slowly we descended into the water. As the splash of aquamarine sea surrounded me in from all side a feeling of dread pierced through my heart. Hydrophobia was taking control. As trained I took a few deep breaths with my eyes closed and relaxed, bubbling air out through my regulator. A few feet down I opened my eyes and I then went
SPEECHLESS. The turquoise blue water had embraced me with the warmth of a carving mother. It was as if I was floating in nothingness in her lap. I twisted around to look in all directions and the blue was omnipresent. Overhead the sunlight was sparkling, scattering on the surface of the water. Beneath me the blue was a shade darker. My eyes' quest for my Esposa was instantaneous, I wanted to hold her hand and tell her how beautiful it all felt and blessed I was to be witnessing all this, which I thought always was a dream. But it was right in-front of me now. She was a few feet away, her bright blue suit visibly identifying her. It seemed she was in a world of her own right now... Enchanted, Enthralled, Euphoric.
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A solo Batfish swimming away |
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"Nemo" - Advised not to touch anything |
We slowly glided down into deep water. The water was a little murky, but visibility was quite good. Fishes appeared in schools now. Tiny little yellow zebra-fishes danced around. A solo bat fish came very close, as if asking,
"How's you mate? What are you doing down here?". It was so close that I could touch it but we were advised not to touch anything. A few seconds later it lost interest in me and swam away with a flicker of it's tail. The deeper we descended the higher the water pressure got. I could feel it in my ears. Swallowing saliva released some pressure off my eardrums. I had to do it time and again to maintain the pressure, as we were trained earlier. The ocean bed was not very sandy as I had expected it to be. Corals spread across like mounts all around, some vibrant in colour while some dull shades of grey and brown. Fishes flickered in random motions among the labyrinth of the corals. Hues of green, blue, yellow and orange were trailing along their tails and fins. A couple of Sergeant-fish were feeding absentmindedly close to a bright orange coral. My instructor tapped on my right shoulder gesturing me if I was fine. I signaled back "
All good". He then pointed me to a very big sponge to our left, it was a Giant barrel sponge ( one of the largest of it's species). It was almost as tall as me. Around the corner of my eye something caught my attention. A sight that I always wanted see in real life... Reef clown fish playing on the tentacles of the sea anemone.
"Nemo", he was there right infront of me. Bright reddish orange and white running down it's body. Peeping out from it's stinging abode of anemone it kept patrolling it's home. There is a unique relationship between the two habitants of reefs. The world around me felt so surreal that I was amazed '
such a realm did actually exist'.
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Dance of the Anemone and Clown fish |
I don't remember how long it had been since we were in the water because I was loving it. The oxygen cylinders had enough air to dive for about an hour. We were almost at the end of our dive when suddenly I felt some water sneaking into my mask. I did as I was instructed, pressing slightly against the upper part of my mask I exhaled strongly. Unfortunately I pressed the mask way too hard, and it slipped away from my head. I panicked. Shacking vigorously I tried to hold on to my regulator but in vain. We were almost fifty sixty feet below the surface. My Instructor quickly put on his reserve regulator to my face and released the air valve. In no time my diving vest puffed up as air filled in. Like a jet propelled missile I rose towards the surface. Desperately I kept staring upwards as the light got brighter and brighter with every feet of ascend. Few seconds later I emerged up breaking through the surface. Suddenly the air rushed into my lungs in jolts. I breathed in heavy, inhaling long. Felt alive again. I turned around and saw the an instructor swimming beside me (it was not Raghav), he seemed a little bit disappointed.
He asked with a questioning look,
"What happened down there?"
I replied guiltily,
"I panicked."
"It's OK. Don't worry, things happen. Was it your first dive?"
"Yes", I said.
"It's fine. Let's move to the shore now." , he said dragging me steadily.
"Is our dive over?", I asked.
"Yup, time was about to be over", he spoke back.
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Where's my wife?", I enquired.
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She is with Raghav. They will be back soon.", he said.
It was relief to reach the shore again but somewhere deep within I felt a little disheartened that this awesome experience had come to an end. The weight belt felt heavy on my waist and the suit wet... cold. I put down the belt unstrapping it from the buckle. A starving sigh escaped my lips. I sat down on the white sands, the waves tickling the sole of my feet. The vast ocean stretched far way into the fading horizon. It's the surface that is a mirage, deep below lies an unexplored world... a cosmos of ubiquitous blue, where every breath counts and life reveals it's true identity. The nothingness of our existence becomes more evident with the magnitude of enormity of the world that we live within sips in. Colours of animate beings blooming from every spec of the enchanting world. Life merges into nature and nature merges into you.
As I closed my eyes, serenity engulfed me. I visualized myself deep in the blues with schools of fishes swimming around me. No masks, no oxygen cylinder, no life jacket... just me and the mother ocean. In her lap I stretched out my arms and let go of my burdens, just embracing her. She gently touched my body all around and whispered,
"You are home my child. this is where you belong, in my lap." . My lips glided away, spreading out, smiling. I opened my eyes, the images still lingering in my heart and mind. In a distance I could see two bright blue flippers sticking out from the water and an instructor dragging them to the shore. It was my Esposa, I recognized those flippers as I had been just behind her underwater. I stood up and kept waiting for her to reach the shore. She reached waist high water and flipped to stand straight. Her eyes met mine as she turned around. Joy spilling out from her face. She walked up to me.
"Did you see that large octopus?", She asked with a bright smile on her face. Childish enthusiasm dashing ahead. Ahhh... it seemed she has a lot of stories to share.
I shook my head,
"No."
She looked at me curiously standing on the sands.
"Were you out early?". Her words followed.
Hmmm... It seemed I had tales of my own as well.
I smiled.
The After Moments
A few hours later we were strolling on the beach after our lunch. Loads to tell and loads to listen to. This is how life has been for us, like a book with a intricately carved cover... we read it one chapter at a time. And with every page that we turn has a new surprise awaiting us. We plan a journey out, spend some time preparing for it, live the moment, treasured those beautiful memories that we will cherish for a lifetime to come and then we plan again.
That is life. There is a saying,
"People who do not journey are reading the same page of life again and again".
She said, "
Scuba diving in the Andamans... DONE."
Eyes bright with unexpected adventure ahead she added, "
Where next and what next?"
Mischief dangling on the goblet of my lips,
I Smiled back...